My day started all nice with that song below. It’s finished with me feeling more like the following song.
Vicki’s being a spaz. She’s going to end up getting back with her ex-boyfriend because she’s a small-minded little girl who doesn’t know what she’s doing at the moment. It wouldn’t be such a big deal if she’d just tell me the fucking truth about it. Instead she keeps all quiet, ignores the couple of messages I’ve bothered sending her. Avoids seeing me when possible, and avoids talking to me when she sees me.
This got me in a really bad mood, which in turn made me fuck things up with Lizi. I’ve given up waiting for Vicki, a long time ago. Lizi is absolutely awesome, and I’m so pissed off that Vicki’s got to me as much as she has done. I was supposed to see Lizi today, but then she changed her mind because I was going to be going to the quiz at The Talbot. She didn’t want me to buy her drinks. She also didn’t want me to cancel going to the quiz, even though I genuinely offered. So we ended up arguing (because I was in a bad mood already) and now she’s ignoring my messages too.
We had sort of arranged to meet up tomorrow instead of tonight, but I’m fairly sure that’s not going to happen now. I’ve totally managed to fuck over the only chance I had at getting someone I want. I can’t stand crap like this. It’s all just a storm in a tea-cup really, but it’ll take days to sort out, even if I apologise profusely. I don’t know what I can do to patch things up with Lizi, and I don’t have a clue what to do about Vicki. She sometimes tries to be friends, but then doesn’t bother for a really long time. Usually when she fucking wants something from me. She obviously did like me, but I really don’t think she knows what she wants now. I don’t want to wait around like a fool to find out. It’s just a shame it’s all gone this way.
